On high ground
easy answers
& censure clear
In community
understanding dawns
as silent words
listening accompany

I was 17, the wind was sweeping across the War Memorial in Ottawa and I admit I was momentarily distracted that my Erracht kilt might flip upward to demonstrate (on the long-ago Remembrance Day) that I was in fact wearing my dress-kit authentically. At attention, as dignitaries and politicians laid wreaths, I watched those eyes, flit back and forth far from the Now. Eyes housed in bodies that had moved beyond the youthful memories in which they were inhabiting on that blustery day. Though the pipes played around me, embracing all of us, they were back on fields, riding mechanised armour, watered flotillas or air-swept horizons in and upon which men and women died.

The memories of war surrounded me and – as I anticipated the possibility of going Reg Force, imagining wearing a Blue Beret to honour those who kept the peace – the tears fell speaking a language that words articulate improperly and inaccurately. Words once given voice too often lead to paradoxes. Words lead to binaries – right and wrong – that requires them to be defended in ways that may not honour the tears of those who have seen horror. Ones which we long that none of the children in our lives will ever experience.

The recent events in Saint-Jean-sur-Richelieu and Ottawa have appropriately forced us all to pause with breath seized. The sadness, the mourning that has and will unfold feels Sacred. Some of the words that are being spoken, uttered and preached also feel dangerous. As I sit here, watching the cursor blink, I realise the tension in which we find ourselves. I note that reflecting upon these tragedies is … perilous to pen.

There is a connexion, a thread that links this moment in time – in which the Maple Leaf is being reflected upon – with an unfolding discussion about peace and war.

• Who are we as a country?
• What is it others think of us?
• Who do we imagine we are in this
globalised & interconnected world?
• What do others, who make up
the global family, think of us?

The 17 year-old I was – if I were to be honest – does not recognise the lens through which we now see ourselves. At one time, we were invited to help neighbours to make space. Perhaps even only to allow silence to nurture peace that the din of words might stunt. As I watched memorials unfold this week, I no longer sense the wisdom of Lester Pearson resonating. Words that seem more important than ever before:

The stark and inescapable fact is that today we cannot defend our society by war since total war is total destruction, and if war is used as an instrument of policy, eventually we will have total war.

I do not have ready or simple answers or solutions to the malaise that now grips our global narrative. Since 2001, we seem to have found ourselves telling stories of who is right and who is wrong. We seem to live in a plot where it is tempting to dismiss the difficult issues of mental illness, economic injustice, environmental degradation and racial profiling. By drifting toward a monotone tale, a one-dimensional and flattened chronicle, we seem to have arrived at seeing the Other as the enemy. We seem frightened to engage in collaborative opportunities that – though difficult – offer understanding. Without understanding, it is too easy to dehumanise one another.

As a Christian reflecting during this sad week, in which our Canadian and collective soul is in turmoil, I must hold on to this simple truth: it is only in relating to the Other that I know who I am. Without a relationship, we take steps toward a future that emanates grieving and loss. Moving toward relationship with the Other – myself – space might be made for lament and tears, anger and mutual forgiveness. It is there that I spy Hope, even if only distant as these words come to a cursor’s pause ||||||

And we weep
Children lost
& souls ache
Numbed by future unsure
May reflection’s pause
make space
for wisdom’s dawn